Episode Eight Confessionals

[allan]

DECISIONS...

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Ugh! I am chatting with Hugo and I want to trust him so badly, but who knows whether or not I can. I think I can, but we shall see. I keep talking about the voted he DID get, just in case Mateusz had played an idol. I am hoping he will have my back, because I have his.

[allan]

Yeah, so no one has my back except maybe Ryan. I exchanged some quarters at work today so I can attempt immunity. I am very clumsy so I am not holding out much hope which sucks because I have to play my idol. Bollocks.

I shall practice now, as my laundry is in.

I opened a Coors Light, and despite what it seems like, I rarely drink so often. It's this game. It's these people.

[allan]

I chatted on call with Casey last night, and she is really cool. I love meeting interesting people from all over, studying different things. Otherwise, why play these games? The validation of acceptance? Please, child. Anyhow, I liked meeting her so much and we talked a lot about the game which was nice, so I am awarding her with a Garnet.


CASEY - 1

[allan]

STACKING STONES STONED

[allan]

SO last night I talked to people and spoke openly to everyone about my suspicions and particularly my suspicions of THEM, to see how they'd react and use whatever sense I got out of it to decide what to do. Sam and Taylor told me that Casey had thrown Ryan and I under the bus to make it seem like we were coming after them.

I am sure she was doing that to make it seem like she was with them (I would if I didn't have an idol too), so who knows her true intentions. I am sure that if they vote for her, or even split votes between her and someone else, then she will go back to whoever she had in her civilization, if they'd still have her. Still can't figure out why Keith gave her up.

Devon is a wild card. He keeps telling me he wants Sam or Taylor out, and I know he got in with them while Ryan and I were gone. I even said to Sam that I felt like he and Hugo replaced Ryan and I in the alliance. I was Hadar strong while I was with Hadar, but I always tell whoever I am currently talking to that I am strong with them. Isn't that the point?

I am unsure of what cheating has been going on since I last worried about it. I am still under the impression that it's happening, but not as worried anymore, because knowing it goes on makes me feel less upset about being voted out in the near future. I am still going to try whatever I can though.

I assured Sam I was not working with Ricky come merge. I told him I wouldn't want to vote Ricky out, but will let it happen if others do. I am sure Ricky feels the same with me. Sam has an idol, which makes this merge really easy on him. I wold LOVE it if we didn't merge right away. Sorta. Without an idol I will feel way more vulnerable on this tribe.

Let's see what happens today...

[allan]

I AM SICK.